Life with A Little One

Normally that would be the title of a blog where someone tells all about life with a new baby, but this is a little different. This blog is about a different kind of journey. A few months ago, my husband and I took in the six-year-old daughter of a single-mother friend of ours so that she (our friend) could have a chance to get on her feet and work through some struggles that she was facing.
I really expected it to be much more difficult, but it has actually been pretty normal-seeming. We have all adjusted pretty well, I think, and have fallen into a sort of cadence with one another. We are homeschooling her, and I am taking my classes online, so that I can stay home with her. So far, this has been working pretty well.

And, honestly? I love it. I love her being here, I love watching her learn, I love being there to offer a healing influence, I love her. My life is so full right now, and it is difficult to balance everything, but I’m trying to be patient with myself and my progress, and I have help.  The One Who never grows weary is helping me.

Fight Truth Decay!

So I actually got the title from a note I found among my Granny’s writings:) I thought it made a neat title. Her point was to fight truth decay by filling yourself with God’s word. Today I’m posting some scriptures I’ve broken down for myself that really boost the spiritual “immune system.”

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There you go! Fill yourself with God’s truth about who He is, and who you are, and fight spiritual decay!

Reset

A few nights ago, I was trying to pray about something that was making me feel anxious, but the more I prayed about it the more anxious I became. It seemed like I wasn’t really praying, because I was just becoming more fixated on my problem. At this point, I realized that I was doing it all wrong, that what I should have been doing was focusing on Who God is, and how wonderful He is. So, I started recalling scriptures that described God’s power,love, mercy, and provision, and I immediately felt better. I decided then that when I can’t do anything else, when I feel anxious, defeated, or afraid; I will just focus on Who God is. If you are reading this, and you need to reset your mind, this is the place to start. When you can’t pray or praise, remind yourself of what God has done, what He has promised, and how much He loves you. Refresh yourself on His character, rediscover His promises, and insulate yourself in all that He is, and all that He has given you through Christ.

A Favorite Scripture Pathway

I have certain passages of scripture in my bible linked to other verses, and in a few cases, those verses lead to other verses. I like to think of them as scripture ‘pathways,’ scriptures that link to other scriptures; sort of like a chain of thoughts. These marked scripture pathways remind me of a treasure hunt, with each scripture as a clue that leads to the next, eventually climaxing in a ‘treasure of understanding.’

And so I’d like to introduce you to one of my favorite scripture hunts. This one starts in the gospel of John, chapter 16, verse 33:

“These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.”

In my bible I have “Phil 4:13” marked right next to this verse, which signals me to the next part of my scripture journey:

“I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I have learned both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. 13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” (I have included verse 12 as well.)

This verse has another scripture marked beside it: “Heb 4:15.” This  leads me to the next piece of the pathway:

14 Seeing then that we have a great High Priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession. 15 For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin. (Again, I include the preceding verse, because it seems to complete the meaning for me.)

Hebrews 2:18 is my next ‘clue:’

For in that He Himself has suffered, being tempted, He is able to aid those who are tempted.

Which leads me to 2 Corinthians 12:9:

And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.”Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

Next, I turn to Colossians 2:14:

13 And you, being dead in your trespasses and the uncircumcision of your flesh, He has made alive together with Him, having forgiven you all trespasses, 14 having wiped out the handwriting of requirements that was against us, which was contrary to us. And He has taken it out of the way, having nailed it to the cross. 15 Having disarmed principalities and powers, He made a public spectacle of them, triumphing over them in it. (I usually have to read verses 13 and 15 too.)

Then I head over to Galatians 2:20:

I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.

The journey ends at Revelations 1:5-6:

and from Jesus Christ, the faithful witness, the firstborn from the dead, and the ruler over the kings of the earth. To Him who loved us and washed us from our sins in His own blood, 6 and has made us kings and priests to His God and Father, to Him be glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen.

All of these verses hold special meaning to me, but stringing them together like this really brings them a little more to life for me, and makes me feel as if Jesus is right beside me, whispering these truths in my ear. The last passage just feels so intimate and personal, and, illuminated by the preceding passages, illustrates this faithful Jesus; this Jesus who lovingly washed me in his own blood, undeterred by my filthiness and unworthiness. Following is an excerpt from my journal describing my sentiments on this verse:

“I love this picture of Jesus lovingly and sacrificially bathing us in his own blood so that we might be acceptable before a holy God. What a tender master, friend and brother to us wayward, yet beloved souls.”

Do you do something like this? Do you have any favorite scripture pathways? I’d love to hear about them:)

The Generous God

Several nights ago I had a rather liberating revelation about God’s character. I had been having a rough time that day, and I was spending some quiet time with God before bed in an effort to clear my head. One of the things that had been weighing on me was our financial situation-especially certain bills that had to be paid later than they were actually due. The following scripture came unexpectedly to mind:

I Corinthians 3:5-8

5 Who then is Paul, and who is Apollos, but ministers through whom you believed, as the Lord gave to each one? 6 I planted, Apollos watered, but God gave the increase. 7 So then neither he who plants is anything, nor he who waters, but God who gives the increase. 8 Now he who plants and he who waters are one, and each one will receive his own reward according to his own labor.

Now, I am very familiar with this scripture, but that night I saw it from a very different perspective. I was startled by the fact that this scripture was illustrating a very basic principle of God’s character and heart toward His children: that He is a God of increase and abundant generosity, that He rewards us extravagantly for the tiny work that He enables us to do in the first place. Consider the parable of talents which proves to be another picture of God’s generous character:

Matthew 25:14-28

14 “For the kingdom of heaven is like a man traveling to a far country, who called his own servants and delivered his goods to them. 15 And to one he gave five talents, to another two, and to another one, to each according to his own ability; and immediately he went on a journey. 16 Then he who had received the five talents went and traded with them, and made another five talents. 17 And likewise he who had received two gained two more also. 18 But he who had received one went and dug in the ground, and hid his lord’s money. 19 After a long time the lord of those servants came and settled accounts with them.

20 “So he who had received five talents came and brought five other talents, saying, ‘Lord, you delivered to me five talents; look, I have gained five more talents besides them.’ 21 His lord said to him, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant; you were faithful over a few things, I will make you ruler over many things. Enter into the joy of your lord.’ 22 He also who had received two talents came and said, ‘Lord, you delivered to me two talents; look, I have gained two more talents besides them.’23 His lord said to him, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant; you have been faithful over a few things, I will make you ruler over many things. Enter into the joy of your lord.’

24 “Then he who had received the one talent came and said, ‘Lord, I knew you to be a hard man, reaping where you have not sown, and gathering where you have not scattered seed. 25 And I was afraid, and went and hid your talent in the ground. Look, there you have what is yours.’

26 “But his lord answered and said to him, ‘You wicked and lazy servant, you knew that I reap where I have not sown, and gather where I have not scattered seed. 27 So you ought to have deposited my money with the bankers, and at my coming I would have received back my own with interest.28 Therefore take the talent from him, and give it to him who has ten talents.

Here,  we can see from the opening line “The kingdom of heaven is like…” that this parable represents God’s dealings with those who are a part of His heavenly kingdom. Notice how disproportionately  each (faithful) servant is rewarded. They got back way more than they invested, and, even what they invested was given to them. Furthermore, it is clearly illustrated from the lazy servant’s audience with the master that anything done to increase the original amount given was worthy of a reward, and that only inaction was unacceptable:

“But his lord answered and said to him, ‘You wicked and lazy servant, you knew that I reap where I have not sown, and gather where I have not scattered seed.  So you ought to have deposited my money with the bankers, and at my coming I would have received back my own with interest.”

What strikes me most about the lazy servant is that he was completely deceived about the true character of his master, and he suffered because of it. His perception of his master’s character influenced what he did with what he was given:

 I knew you to be a hard man, reaping where you have not sown, and gathering where you have not scattered seed.  And I was afraid, and went and hid your talent in the ground. Look, there you have what is yours.’”

The lazy servant’s belief that his master was harsh and selfish made him afraid and rendered him inactive. On the contrary, the faithful servants were very active with what they were given and they seemed excited and proud to bring their return to the master. They don’t seem to cower in fear at all. Perhaps this is because they knew that their master was good and generous.

God expects us to do something with what He gives us, but He rewards us for our flawed efforts so much more richly than we could ever deserve. Think about it, He gives us the starting investment, He helps us invest it, and He rewards us for being obedient and faithful(which we can’t even do without His help anyway!)

So why do I worry about anything?! My God is a lavish, generous God.  Here’s an excerpt from my journal on this subject:

“With all of my life, in every way, I may have a job to do, but God ALWAYS takes the responsibility of giving the increase. He makes my seeds grow and flourish-not me. I plant, water, and tend, but I need have no cares or fears; for the great Master Gardner oversees it all, corrects what mistakes I may make and breathes life into the work I put forth. He infuses my life and work with meaning, grace, and abundant life.”

Love: the best prescription

I was reading through a book of poems my Granny gave me last night, and I came across a page of handwritten bible verses about love. The verses were from The first book of John (1) and described the plight of a person devoid of love as well as the clarity that comes to those who choose to love.
I came away with the following reflections:
•Loving your brother=clear vision.
•Love does no ill to it’s neighbor, therefore, it does not indulge in bitterness, angry suspicions, or evil thoughts about others. Instead, love hopes and believes the best about others. (2,3)
•Love can see clearly to navigate through the challenges of life, because it is above the dark, confusing storm clouds of selfishness, anger, and hate.(4)
•When you look for good, you find it, when you look for evil, you are blinded by it’s influence and your ability to see good is greatly reduced.

Scripture References:

(1)He who says he is in the light, and hates his brother, is in darkness until now. He who loves his brother abides in the light, and there is no cause for stumbling in him. But he who hates his brother is in darkness and walks in darkness, and does not know where he is going, because the darkness has blinded his eyes. (1 John 2:9-11 NKJV)

(2)Love does no harm to a neighbor; therefore love is the fulfillment of the law. (Romans 13:10 NKJV)

(3)[love] is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. (1 Corinthians 13:5-7 NKJV)

(4)For where envy and self-seeking exist, confusion and every evil thing are there. (James 3:16 NKJV)

In Christ I Am New

Yesterday morning I threw a temper tantrum. I have them every so often, and once one has started I’m never sure how I got to that emotional state at all. These tantrums are always preceded by some type of stress-usually more than one stressor at a time. Yesterday, it was a combination of feeling rushed, being upset that my prayer time was probably not going to happen, and feeling overwhelmed by everything that I needed to do. I lost it.  I cried, I yelled,  I banged myself and other things around, I yelled at my husband, and I felt terrible for how I was acting all at the same time. As is usually the case during one of these fits, the feeling of guilt over my own terrible behavior only seemed to push me farther over the edge. When I finally calmed down, I repented and talked to God about it all. Then I did a little bible-reading before class. I thought about the verse that talks about the fruit of the spirit versus the fruit of the flesh in Galatians, and I turned there to read over it. I ended up reading a few other verses as well. I was reminded that I am still God’s redeemed and beloved daughter no matter how badly I behave, and that God’s grace is always enough for me. Between what I read in Galatians and what I read in Colossians, as a part of my bible reading for the day, I came up with some confessions for myself. I am writing them here, as a way to share them with others who may need the encouragement. As for me, I hope to fill myself with the truth of my new nature, as a way of becoming more like Christ and overcoming the fear that leads me into those temper tantrums.

Galatians 4:6 God has put the Spirit of His Son in me, this Spirit assures me that I am a daughter of God. My relationship with the Father is restored and I am no longer a slave, I am a free child of God, and an heir of God through Christ.

Galatians 4:28-31 I am a daughter of freedom.

Galatians 5:1 I am set free from the yoke of bondage.

Galatians 5:22 My new nature is loving, joyful, peaceful, patient, kind, good, faithful, gentle, and self-controlled.

Colossians 1:13-14 God has delivered me from the power of darkness and has transplanted me into the kingdom of His Son, in Whom I have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins.

A Moment of Thanks

I like to take a few minutes before my morning class to reflect, and be thankful to God. Below is a list from yesterday’s reflection:
-Thankful for this lovely day
-Thankful that flowers still bloom and birds still sing
-Thankful for the faith that God has created in my heart
-Thankful that God is the author of my life, and my caretaker
-Thankful for the mighty work that God is doing in me, and for the work that He has done all along
-Thankful that God is the creator of my life and my faith in Him
-Thankful that love is stronger than fear

Beautiful Monster

I found this bit scrawled on a piece of paper today, and I thought I’d share it here. I am not exactly sure when I wrote it, but I know it was near the end of last semester. *

Beautiful Monster

April 2013*

Bruised and mangled by lies,

diseased by sin,

still you touch my filthiness and bring me to Yourself.

Scarred by the fall I share with humanity,

disfigured in the face of perfection,

marred before true holiness;

yet, You heal and make me whole.

You repair my broken places,

You restore my missing pieces.

September 26,2013

Since my commitment to daily rest with God I have been able to recognize and dwell in God’s grace at a deeper level. Not surprisingly, I have been more trusting and less overwhelmed. I have felt God’s grace being poured over every day and every task. Even the ability to continue in these daily times of spiritual rest has come through grace.  I still have ‘bad’ days, I still get overwhelmed, but I am more able to surrender to God in these times and receive peace. Most importantly, I am able to focus on God’s character and promises versus my circumstances, personal failings etc.